Twenty-Two

Cher journal, It's strange being in your twenties; all of a sudden I feel this pressure to have my life together, to know exactly what to do at every obstacle I face, but I've found it's quite the opposite. Now more than ever is the time for making mistakes, for choosing different career paths and … Continue reading Twenty-Two →

PTO (Please Turn Over)

Cher journal, Change can be scary, terrifying even. I find myself freezing up, like a deer in headlights- I feel lost, as if everything is moving around me and I am a fixed moment in time. I know this feeling is only temporary; I've felt it many times before, although my mind seems to tell … Continue reading PTO (Please Turn Over) →

Rebonjour

Cher journal, Goodness it's been a while hasn't it? I often underestimate how swept up in life I get. It's not necessarily a bad thing- I've enjoyed being busy, but it is nice to step back and reflect every now and then isn't it? Take a deep breath and truly allow your shoulders to drop … Continue reading Rebonjour →

Soup for the Soul

"Being touch starved — also known as skin hunger or touch deprivation — occurs when a person experiences little to no touch from other living things." Living alone has been wonderful; I have my own kitchen, I don't have to share my space and I can walk around the house naked (if I so desire), but living alone during a pandemic? … Continue reading Soup for the Soul →

Begin Anew

I finished another journal last week and I've already started a new one. I always look forward to the end of each journal as I get to look back upon all the things I've written. When I read through my latest journal, I realised how much I had grown as a person in the past … Continue reading Begin Anew →

21st October

Cher journal, Today marks one year since my attempted suicide. I find it difficult to see progress in long-term things, but when I think about where I was a year ago in comparison to now, I am very proud of myself. Yes, I still suffer from mental illness and, yes, I still have bad days, … Continue reading 21st October →

Au Revoir!

Cher journal, When I was eleven years old my grandma took me to Calais in France, it was there that I fell in love with everything French. Although Calais isn't the most authentically French city, to my eleven year old self it was incredible. Since then I've dreamed of living in France, becoming a cliche … Continue reading Au Revoir! →

Knowing Me, Knowing You

Cher journal, How do you define knowing someone? Is it by the years in which you’ve been friends? Is it by the sheer amount you know about them? Or is it simply connecting with that person on a deeper level? I used to think that knowing someone was about surface level; knowing their favourite TV … Continue reading Knowing Me, Knowing You →

An Excerpt…

Cher journal, I wanted to share an excerpt from my journal that's dated 15/05/19... Where am I at this stage in my life? I'm unchanged, lying to myself, pretending to be an independent 18 year-old when in reality I'm still that little girl running round in circles, desperately seeking approval from her father. I can't … Continue reading An Excerpt… →

Here We Go Again

Cher journal, Once again it seems that I find myself reaching for my laptop, feeling the urge to write about the thoughts that are swirling around in my head. Whenever I feel myself begin to fade or go numb my brain kickstarts one of my (only) healthy coping mechanisms and encourages me to write about … Continue reading Here We Go Again →