21st October

Cher journal, Today marks one year since my attempted suicide. I find it difficult to see progress in long-term things, but when I think about where I was a year ago in comparison to now, I am very proud of myself. Yes, I still suffer from mental illness and, yes, I still have bad days, … Continue reading 21st October

Au Revoir!

Cher journal, When I was eleven years old my grandma took me to Calais in France, it was there that I fell in love with everything French. Although Calais isn't the most authentically French city, to my eleven year old self it was incredible. Since then I've dreamed of living in France, becoming a cliche … Continue reading Au Revoir!

Une Lumière Douce

Utter darkness,Only a single flameFlickering, dancing.A Monarch butterfly or perhaps a moth,Neither are mine, yet I'm drawn toThe flame alike.Lift your swift fingers andDelicately trace your own designOn my metamorphosing skin.Why must change take place in darkness?My New Moon, mon Soleil,I wish for only light to trickle downAnd consume me.May I be your undying votive?Perhaps … Continue reading Une Lumière Douce