Swim

Swim faster, harder
– You’re trying not to drown.
Dont forget to throw lifelines to
The others, although they’re floating.
Stop thrashing around,
Take a deep breath
– “Je sens rien, je sens rien”
How many times must I repeat myself
Before I believe it?

Is there a lifeboat passing by?
No more room unfortunately,
Only survivors are welcome.
Am I still dreaming?
Paralysed by fear that feels
Real only when I sleep.

Is it fair to leave the other
Souls, lost at sea
– There’s not a lifeguard in sight.

I whisper so only the waves and near-dead can hear me
– “Swim”.