It’s difficult to balance everything in life sometimes; social life, work, University, mental health and self-care.
I always feel as if I can only prioritise one thing at a time, constantly leaning towards different aspects of my life, but never managing to equally focus on them at the same time.
Most of the time this doesn’t bother me, I’m tolerant of myself, I know that life isn’t perfectly balanced 100% of the time. Other times, I criticise myself for not managing all aspects of my life, for not being okay all the time.
I’ve learnt over the years that it’s perfectly okay to feel upset and down, but it’s difficult to always think this way. Sometimes I feel myself slipping, feeling down and struggling to help myself. I begin to isolate myself, doing things that I know don’t help me, not being able to just go and speak to someone about how I feel. This leads to lots of confusing thoughts, not knowing how to act as I can’t completely process how I’m feeling. It leads to me being distant with people who I care about, and because I’m terrified of hurting them, I distance myself further.
“But her friend is nowhere to be seen, as she walks through her sunken dream…”